I will not begin my blog with a happy story or even a happy ending story. Just my true story.
Recently my daily routine changed. Despite of thinking that I am not the guy that can handle big changes I had to handle this big change.I broke up with my long last relationship. We were sharing the same since the first month of our relationship. Many changes in a short period of time for a person like me,who likes to have steady things in his life. Maybe this disorganized "my productivity" but the reality is that a big reboot happened in my brain. I realized that I had forgotten how to enjoy life. It wasn't my partner's fault. It was me that I was feeling that I am too old for fun, I had to make money to be someone. Now I feel that these don't really matter if you forget to live. You should first enjoy life and then try to improve you life. My best friend tells me that he tries to win his freedom through financial freedom and he is right. We don't live in disneyworld. But for me it wasn't so simple I was trapped in my mind. I had to take a big slap to make a reboot, like a remote control. I don't know what my next move will be but for sure I am going to enjoy it.
Edit: I wrote this article some days after my break up. Some time has passed but my emotions are like roller coaster, some times I feel extra motivated some times I feel a void in me. It's not easy but I keep moving I exercise everyday, I try to keep a routine and keep negative thoughts out of my head. My productivity in work is reduced, this is not good time for me for sure but time keep moving I must not stay in place. Time is priceless.
Edit 2:Even more time has passed until i decided to upload this article.Things are better, i stay most of the days in a good mood, i train like a beast, i work a lot , i have become valuable in my work. I dont say that everyday is the same day but that is ok for now. The most difficult part is to get used to yourself and your lonliness but maybe that’s the best part. I think that for two months of break up i do pretty good.
This blog was a difficult decision for me to upload because sometimes i am not honest even to myself. So i deicided to be open and honest to the world!😂
Thank you for reading Eneas Lari.